i don’t remember if i ever loved myself.
but all alone i loved, once.
i’ve slept naked, a tiger with nightmares, an animal on a leash in a burrow of fevers. night’s where i woke up & couldn’t move, because no matter where i left your memories, they found a tunnel back into my chest.
another dusk with double-espresso van gogh & it burns my drowsy throat to know the fluorescent pictures tacked to the back of my eyelids like postcards that sunk with the titanic, wish you were here, are reaching for me from that hole forever.
before my eyes were stolen & my mouth was packed with soil, i’d have a yellow american spirit & think of freedom.
those were the days. those were my days. those w e re.
& now they’re not & never will again.
I read the
Writing on the wall
Like sleet on my bare skin
Ice crystals that burn
And freeze on contact
I recognize your
I long to
Cans of spray paint
From my battered
Connect the dots
With hunter green
Soften the edges
Silver and mauve
Rewrite the narrative
But this is not
I am unsure of
On your turf
Concrete and steel
To my 3rd floor
Rows of deadlocks
On the door
Never sure if
Their purpose is to
Keep others out
Or keep my creative
In this room
Of my own
What I want
What I need
And lose myself
To the process
Etched with light
A thing of
That you may
Christine Ray writes for Brave and Reckless and The Whisper and The Roar and is a managing editor at Sudden Denouement.
She is an aspiring badass
Overwhelmed is for Wednesdays,
between day old bread and another
She drops it into cracked glass
where it sinks and stays
contained and safe to study,
like a strange or elusive bird
she has been meaning to watch.
Oh, look at you pretty birdie,
terrifying birdie; she’s caged you now.
And it flutters, wingless, in the bottom
of her grandmother’s before four o’clock
crystal that gives her permission to sigh
in acceptance as it cradles overwhelming
so beautifully, right before she throws it
back to meet the aftermath of underwhelmed,
and a Tuesday night blowjob.
[Nicole Lyons is creator of The Lithium Chronicles, as well as being an editor and writer for Sudden Denouement. As always, we are honored by her presence.]
Sudden Denouement Literary Collective and Secret First Draft are holding a joint Writing Contest in the month of March to elicit new writers for the Collective.
Writing Prompt: March Madness
Each entry should be more than 50 words but less than 500
Each writer may submit 1 to 3 (maximum) pieces of writing for consideration
Submissions will be accepted: 3/1/2017 through 3/31/2017
Full prize information to be announced soon!
1st Place Winner will be granted membership in the Sudden Denouement Literary Collective
2nd, 3rd and 4th Place Runners-ups will be granted membership in the Secret First Draft Collective.
Send your submissions with your name, your pen name (if applicable), the address for your blog and a short biography (1 to 3 sentences to): Suddendenouement@gmail.com
The Sudden Denouement Literary Collective and its sister sites Secret First Draft and The Whisper and The Roar are forums for divergent literature that we hope excite and challenge you.
The top three posts will be published on Sudden Denouement and the top five posts will be published on Secret First Draft.
Finalists will be contacted by Sudden Denouement no later than April 30, 2017.