What are these ghosts that hide in our dreams? The smiling beasts that stick in the shadows while we sleep? A bed sopping sweat in August heat, fuse blown, waking up to hangovers in the middle of the night. Reach for the bedside reservoirs of Excedrin. Reach for the bottles of water beneath the mattress, reach for the joint half-spent in the ashtray. Pace the living-room, pace the kitchen. What are you doing here? This city has us in its grinder. What are we doing here? Looking for dimes on the sidewalks, tallying our dollars and paying student debts to the bar. We’ve lost interest in the good life, ferris wheel of office jobs and part-time gigs. Counting days to eviction, reading beatniks by candlelight, fucking ourselves raw flushed with wine and the ache that everything spent is never fully paid for: smiles full of good teeth, bank tellers who don’t post Closed signs when we’re next in line, maybe a home we can have a dog in. The simple things: to forsake the verdant lust of the jungles, the rush of air into the mouths of caves buried for endless ages in the nights of our cities; like every fool to tell ourselves the horizons are forbidden, to enjoy such simple assurances against inevitable death: a blender, a functioning television, prime-time dramas and a car with four tires. Hide me in your bosom: we feel safest naked and wrapped in the sweat of our quickest moments. Liquor bottles in the cabinets, liquor bottles in the freezer. Short memories of verbal abuse in the sweltering third-floor apartment, cancellation notices tacked to the walls. Grab your purse, doll, we’re going to the bar. We’re going to the bar to drink until the earth becomes what it is, fleeting and vague and full of promises we can only keep to our hearts. We’ll see the faces in the stars and the beauty of strange conversations, beauty of transients we meet in the streets. And when we’re done and have had our fill, to sleep heavily and pleasantly in the flea-infested bed we share, soaked with sweat, August heat, and the crushing teeth of this god-damned city of fear.
Mick Hugh is a writer for Sudden Denouement, and the groundskeeper at Mick’s Neon Fog.
Holy hells this is evocative and powerful. Thank you for this.
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Love it, your stuff always jumps off the screen and into my head.
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“Hide me in your bosom: we feel safest naked and wrapped in the sweat of our quickest moments.”
Son of a bitch, Mick. This is my new favorite of yours. And one of the best I’ve ever read in the history of SD. 🖤
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This made me smile. Thanks Kindra
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You’re so welcome, Mick 😊
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Mick Hugh on Sudden Denouement
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Thanks for the reblog 🙂
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My pleasure
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So visceral and compelling:
“Counting days to eviction, reading beatniks by candlelight, fucking ourselves raw flushed with wine and the ache that everything spent is never fully paid for” Just. . . damn.
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Mick Hugh at its finest.
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exceptional and compelling stuff Mick
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Reblogged this on RamJet Poetry.
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Mordern Heat by Mich Hugh at Sudden Denouement. What a ride! A sculptor getting rid of the useful bits and right to the heart of the matter.
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When’s the book? 🖤
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5 years.
2, if I can get freelancing to work out.
1, if somehow the MacArthur Foundation mistakenly FedEx’s a box of cash to my house.
lol.
Someday.. soon(ish)
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I know that feel. Very much.
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A compelling read!
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